No One Ever Really Understands The Human Mind...Especially Mine

I just want You to see that I'm trying humility,
But it doesn't seem to be working,
My pride, it seems to rule my life,

And my heart, it seems to be full of deceit.

God, my God...I'm sorry I've forsaken you,
But I can't seem to find any excuse,
You gave a gift, I should not deny,
But I have found a way to say no thanks...

I need You to be, my accountability,
My whole entire existence is in a flux,
Pull me apart, and pour me out,
Piece everything I need back in,
I want these things,
Contradicting,
I pull away and deny everything.